Wanted by Hunter Hayes (Boyce Avenue Cover)

I really love this song by Hunter Hayes so I thought I could improvise the lyrics from a girl’s point of view.

Dedicating this song to the love of my life.

You know I’d fall apart without you
I don’t know how you do what you do
‘Cause everything that don’t make sense about me
Makes sense when I’m with you

Like everything that’s green, boy, I need you
But it’s more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you’re wanted too

‘Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I, I wanna make you feel wanted

Anyone can tell you you’re the man yeah
And you get that all the time, I know you do
But your heart’s deeper than what they see
And I wanna show you what I see tonight…

When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips.
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
‘Cause, baby, I, I wanna make you feel wanted

As good as you make me feel
I wanna make you feel better
Better than your prayers
Better than your best dreams
You’re more than everything I need
You’re all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted

And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted
Baby, I wanna make you feel wanted

You’ll always be wanted


Where am I heading?

For some, writing is just a mere way to get the job done. For some, writing is just a mere way to get recognized. For some, writing is just a mere way to simply write. 


I just came back from Rainforest World Music Festival happened at Sarawak Culture Village. There I was at the event, rubbing shoulders with travel writers, music writers and reporters from all over the world. 


For most of the times, I did not pack up my courage to say ‘hi’ or networking. Perhaps some of these veteran writers only thought of I’m a just an Asian kid whose first language was not English, why bother to write in English anyway right?


The vibes being in the midst of fellow writers from different continents only left me inspired and awed, made me think “I really need to work hard on this”. 


One of the mornings, before the concerts and workshops began, I was doing my job in the media center, surrounded by three American writers. I assumed they were Americans. Having to work in this line of work, I’ve interviewed so many people of different nationalities that now I could differentiate an American and a Canadian, a New Zealand accent and an Australian accent. Recently I even interviewed a Welsh, maybe I should take up linguistic and study the accents of the world. 


So back to the story of the three Americans; they talked a lot. About Republicans and Democrats, one of them even mentioned that he was going to publish a travel book. 


It got me thinking; where am I heading with my writing? I don’t want to be one of those people who write just for the sake of writing. To write for the sake of datelines. 


Can I write a novel? I could barely finish my short stories that I started. Can I write a book about my culture? Kicking Heidi Munan of her own game in writing books about Sarawak? Who better to write a book about Sarawak than someone who has Sarawakian blood running through her veins right? Someone who speaks at least three of the native Sarawak dialects.


Can I write about Jesus? My faith as a Catholic?  


I have no idea.


All I know, I’m going to continue to write as if it’s the last thing I would do before I die. 


Story behind “Crash Course on World Cup”

Story behind “Crash Course on World Cup”

Writing Something You Don’t Know About

In the line of media and press, sometimes you were thrown into situations which required you to write something you have no idea about.


Since the FIFA World Cup season is here, I told my editor that I wanted to write something about it. 


After going back and forth with few angles on what to write about it, I ended up with this article, “Crash Course on World Cup History”. 


Why history?


I like history. Not my best subject in school but I remember it to be one of my effortless subjects. My brain happened to be able process history facts regardless my laziness not to study it. I guess it’s because I take every history event like reading a good novel. So if I can remember a good written fictional story why not an event that happened for real.


I drafted few articles, thanks to my ability not to write as fast as my brain could think, I only ended up with one. 


Note to self:

1) Plan my articles ahead.

2) Geez, Pat for the last time, don’t procrastinate.  


And yeah, I called my daddy yesterday to wish him happy Father’s Day. He told me that he read this article and asked where did I get all the facts.


Research, research, and research.

Online research that is.


I realized every time I online research, I thought myself like Lisbeth Salander from Girl with Dragon Tattoo without the illegal hacking thing. 



My Heart Sank Every Time We Never Said Goodbye

There are two things I disagree with Sir Elton John; first is same-sex marriage, second is when he said sorry is the hardest word. I bet he never had to say goodbye.

My heart sank every single freaking time when we say goodbye. It’s funny because we talked for hours on the phone every night when we are apart.

It sank when he looked at me and said, “I love you”.

It sank when he kissed my cheek after he said, “I love you”.

It sank when he did not say goodbye, but ‘I’ll see you again”.

It sank when it felt like we don’t  need to say goodbye as if,

as if,

as if,

We will grow old together,

as if,

as if,

Death will never separate us.

My heart sank every time when we never said goodbye.

Story behind “Giving Oil Palm Plantation a Second Chance”

Story behind “Giving Oil Palm Plantation a Second Chance”

The story behind this article:

a) It was the first time I covered a signing of a MoU.

b) I was trying to make it more relevant to lay people without going so scientific in the explanation (was trying hard to achieve that)

c) It was the second event I went to Universiti Malaysia Sarawak (Unimas) then I found out that Unimas have this habit to make the media came half an hour earlier than time event scheduled to start.